• Roop Bassra

What You See Isn't Always What You Get

Updated: Feb 1



To say the last few years have been a challenge would be putting it mildly.


Physically, it requires all my energy to just get up & get ready. I have never experienced this level of fatigue & consistent pain, making my day-to-day extremely difficult.


Mentally, I’ve had to put more work into my thoughts & feelings than into my physical disabilities.


I try my best to wake up happy & positive about the day but as of late, it’s harder. I’m tired, I’m irritated, I’m angry, I’m sad, I’m disheartened, I’m frustrated & I’ve spent the last week crying.


Why?


Because these last 3 months I have been going to 8+ appointments a week, seeing Chiro, doing Physio, Pilates, Acupuncture, Massage, stretching daily, eating better, Epsom salt baths, etc. but the latest X-ray showed no change despite all this.



Because I have been diagnosed with Isthmic Spondylolysis with Spondylolisthesis, meaning the vertebrae has slipped due to the fracture, which is not able to heal on its own.


Because I have been on Lupron for almost a year & now it’s not working as well with severe cramps returning weeks before the next injection is due.


Because I can barely get a handle on one issue before another one starts.


Because I wake up & go to sleep in pain.


Because I’m full of guilt for not being there.


Because I said something I shouldn’t have.


Because I didn’t say anything when I should have.


Because I need to book in for my 4th surgery, a hysterectomy.


Because after this hysterectomy, I will have to wait 6 months before my back problem can be dealt with.


Because I am realizing how different my life has become in the last year.



Because the life I do have has been on hold.


Because I need to gather my strength so I can be ready for this next phase.


Because when you see me, you won’t know any of this.



Roop Bassra, RN

BSc Psychology, BSc Nursing

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Photography: Ishu Kler 

Hair & Makeup: Nalini Maharaj

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